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My book review for Juliet’s Answer by Glenn Dixon is out right now!

If you scroll down to the very next post, you will find it. I hope you like it. Such a different way at looking at love and how men see it to. Enjoy!




If you go to my ‘Extract‘ page you will find the beginning and more of this story that I am writing…

And they did. Everyone except for Michael hugged me and Matt and by the end of all of the hugs I wanted to go home, exhausted from telling them all the same thing, that no one could say anything about any of this to anyone that wasn’t standing with us right now. I then introduced Matt to everyone so he could know their names.

“Matt this is Michael, Phoebe’s boyfriend” I said, hoping deep down inside that the two of them would get along and this would work out for everyone.

“Hi” Matt said shaking Michael’s hand.

“Hey mate, welcome to nuttiest group of girls you could ever meet” Michael replied with a large smile.

I laughed knowing that Michael was one hundred percent right about what he had just told Matt.

“It’s okay, I won’t let anything bad happen to you. Let’s go inside and buy our tickets” I said taking Matt’s hand into mine.

Everyone followed as we headed inside. They already had our tickets so they didn’t have to wait in line with Matt and me. As I turned around to see where they all were, they were all gone, Michael and Phoebe were the only ones waiting for us.

Where did they all go?

“They went in to get seats” Phoebe said yelling from the back of the room as though she had read my mind and had heard what I was thinking.

Matt and I stood in the long line filled with other couples and teenagers and for once I wasn’t jealous of the girls who were holding their boyfriends hand because I was standing there holding my boyfriend hand as well.

“They all liked you by the way”

“Did they?” Matt asked looking down at me.

I nodded my head because of course they liked him, what wasn’t there to like. Matt kissed the top of my head gently in return.

Then it was our turn to buy tickets. I asked the girl behind the counter for the tickets to the movie that had been decided on outside before we came in and as I went to get my wallet Matt stopped me.

“I’ve got this” he said smoothly like he had a handle on everything.

I watched as he handle himself and took the tickets from the girl once she printed them and I could see the satisfaction in his eyes of what he had just done for me and him.

As we walked back over to Phoebe and Michael, I could see Phoebe smiling at me and I didn’t know why.

“Phoebe stop smiling, you’re freaking me out” I said when we reached them.

“I’m sorry, I’m just so happy for you guys. I’m so happy for you Anna” Phoebe said pulling me in for another quick embrace.

“Okay Phoebe. If you don’t let go we will miss the beginning of the movie” I heard Michael say from next to me as I tried to pull myself away from her.

I could see Phoebes face drop into a frown as soon as he said it and I knew something was off.

“Is everything okay between you and Michael?” I asked Phoebe as we walked into the cinema we were allocated to.

“Yeah, he’s just in one of his moods. I refused to have sex with him before we came here tonight so now he is pissed” she replied.

Matt let go of my hand as she spoke.

“I can’t believe that he still does that to you and thinks it’s going to work” I had to ask knowing that this has been going on for a while.

“Yeah, I guess he is set in his ways now. Does it work between the two of you?” Phoebe asked putting her arm around my shoulder.

What? Excuse me.

I couldn’t believe what Phoebe had said, that she would even think like that and worse say it so loudly in front of Matt.

“Sorry, it’s just that Michael and I had sex the second day I knew him, and you said that you guys have known each other for a week, so for all I could know you guys could have done it a hundred times already”

She went there didn’t she? Of course she did, she’s Phoebe, no filter at all.

“I can’t believe that you just said that first of all and second of all it’s not really any of your business if Matt and I are having sex, even though you know I would have told you anyway” it had to be said, I had to put her in line, not just for herself but also for Matt who had now distanced himself from the two of us.

Matt and I hadn’t even talked about sex and I am definitely not ready to talk about it with him yet let alone have it with him right now.

When we finally reached the door to the cinema room, I could sense Matt behind me. Phoebe walked in with Michael without us.

“We don’t have to go in if you don’t want to?” I heard Matt say as he slipped his arms under my arms around my stomach.

His warm embrace was comforting, I gave his arms a quick squeeze.

“I’m sorry if you heard what Phoebe and I were talking about”

“Don’t be. I said I would never pressure you, so don’t let your friends tell you otherwise” Matt said turning me around to face him “Can I kiss you now seeing as everyone here knows about us?”

I smiled softly to say yes, embarrassed that he still thought he had to ask me.

We took our seats next to Phoebe and Michael as the ads started. There are many certain things I like to partake in before and during a movie. I usually go to the movies before the movie starts, I always have come sort of snack and bottle of water in my bag and I hate talking through movies. I don’t get the point of spending money to see a movie and then talk all the way through it, if you’re going to do that you may as well just stay home.

As the ads rolled on and on Phoebe decided to start asking questions, questions she obviously knew she had the wrong answers to.

“So, I’m guessing you two didn’t meet at a university gathering then?” was her first question and I had no choice but to answer her.

“No we didn’t. Do you remember that storm on Tuesday? Well I had to go to the shops and Matt served me. I was freaking out about the storm as usual and Matt followed me to my car to make sure I was okay. He gave me his number and well, here we are today” I quickly ran through before the curtains covering half of the screen pulled open and the lights completely turned off, signalling the beginning of the movie.

The movie started and everything was perfect. It wasn’t a movie that I particularly wanted to see, but I tried to follow it as best as I could. The arm rests can be moved between the seats, and moments into the beginning of the movie Matt pulled it up and I leaned against his chest, with my hand on his leg and his on top of mine. It was everything I ever thought going to the movies with a boy would be like and more. I was comfortable, we were comfortable.

The movie was near the end when I felt something vibrate. I knew it wasn’t my phone because it doesn’t vibrate that loudly and it was obvious that no one else could feel it. I looked at Matt as I sat up properly and he pulled his phone out.

“I have to get this, it’s David. I’ll be right back” he said getting up and almost running out of the cinema.

I wanted to follow Matt out and see what was wrong but Phoebe told me to wait for him to come back. But not being out there with him was hard.

It had to have only been a few minutes, but felt like forever when Matt returned, sitting back in his seat right next to me.

“Is everything okay?”

“Yeah, David’s not a massive fan of storms either and wanted to know how long I was going to be, but he’s okay” Matt replied tucking his hand over mine.

“Are you sure because if you want to leave we can go right now?” I offered knowing that storms can be scary and frightening for young kids.

“He should be fine, but do you think we can skip dinner?”

“Not even a question, I can take you home as soon as the movie is finished” I replied leaning up to give him a quick kiss.

Matt kissed the top of my head and we got back to watching the end of the movie. As the lights faded on and the silence grew from the screen all that could be heard was the rustling of people getting their things to leave and the rain pouring onto the roof, forcefully. We headed out of the cinema together and I could hear them all talking about where they wanted to go for dinner.

“Hey guys, I and Matt have to go. His brother needs him so we are going to head off” I said as we stepped outside under the large canopy that was sheltering us from the rain.

“Next time though Anna?” quiet Lexie asked.

“Of course, next time we can meet up we will go out for a big dinner together, I promise” I said hugging everyone to say good bye.

They all understood and I love all of my friends for that and I couldn’t wait to meet up with them for a proper dinner, we haven’t had one in a while.

“Phoebe do you still need a ride?” the chill in the air was definitely noticeable now.

“Only if it’s okay still? It’s just that Michael has to get home and finish off an assignment that is due tomorrow, I don’t want to impose” there was never a time when Phoebe didn’t like to impose.

“I can still take you home, we just have to go right now” I pointed out hoping she would realise that now meant right now.

There was a final goodbye and then the three of us walked back to the car. We weren’t going to be covered all the way to the car so as soon as we stepped out from under the canopy we had to run. But that didn’t really do anything. The rain was coming down hard and fast and by the time we got to the car and got in, the three of us were all wet.

“Far out I am cold” I shivered turning the car on to start heating it up and then flicked the heat on so then we could heat up.

It was dark and raining and as the car started to warm up, I put my lights on and pulled my seatbelt on. It wasn’t the first time I had driven in such bad weather but it was the first time that I was in a car with Matt and Phoebe at the same time, something I never really thought was going to happen.

“Are you guys warming up?” I asked as we left the shopping centre car park.

“Yep” Matt replied verbally as he placed his hand on my leg and Phoebe nodded to me in the mirror.

For a brief moment Phoebe and I were looking at each other in the rear view mirror and just smiled. I knew she was happy for me and I was happy that she was happy.

“Am I taking you to your Mum or Dad’s place Phoebe?” I asked needing to know which way I had to head.

“To Dad’s please” she replied nicely leaning forward out of her seat.

At least it is closer to Matt’s house too.

“So Matt, what do you do other than make this one smile from ear to ear?” Phoebe asked out of the blue as I drove her home.

Phoebe, seriously.

I shot her a look in the mirror knowing she would look.

“Other than make this one smile, I work 2 jobs, study and look after my mother and brother” Matt graciously replied.

“So you guys don’t spend each day making out with each other?” she had to add.

“Phoebe, really?”

“Okay I’m sorry, it’s your business and you’ll tell me when you’re ready. I’m just so happy for you” she finished as I pulled into her street.

The rain was easing as I pulled into her driveway making it easier for me to see her head inside, safe.

“Well tonight was interesting. We will have to do it again sometime. Anna, talk to you soon and Matt it was really nice meeting you tonight”

“It was nice meeting you to Phoebe” Matt said as she unbuckled and I pulled up the break.

“I’ll talk to you tomorrow” I called out as she opened the door.

I waited until Phoebe was inside before I pulled out of her drive way and headed for Matt house. Matt was quiet.

“Are you okay?” I asked at a set of lights.

“I am now that it is just the two of us”

I know what you mean.

“I know Phoebe is a lot to handle but you’ll get used to her. It just takes some time. Are you really working two jobs and studying?” I was worried that he hadn’t mentioned any of this to me yet.

“Well there is my job at the supermarket, where we met and I work construction sometimes. I am studying architecture part time at university too”

Really? How does he have time to be here with me then?

“Why haven’t you told me any of this?”

“Because I would rather spend my time kissing you and have fun with you, rather than tell you all the boring bits” he replied moving in his seat to face me as I continued to drive.

“I love kissing you too, but it’s important that I know all about you, I want to know everything about you, every little detail there is to know, good and bad, everything that makes you, you” I said finally pulling into his driveway.

We were sitting there as the rain grew harder staring at each other. There was so much we didn’t know about each other and yet so much that we already did, but this felt different, I could feel it in my soul.

I wanted to say something, but all I could get in was his name before he cut me off with a kiss.

“We’re okay. I still love you and I am not hiding things from you, I’m just taking my time telling you. And I will tell you everything, just not right now. I promise” he said taking my head in his hands before kissing me again.

“Let me know when you get home and drive really safe, for me” he said with a quick kiss and then was gone.

I watched as he sprinted to the front door and wanted to follow him, but I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do, not now after all of that. It was really late by the time I got home and for once Mum had listened to me and wasn’t waiting up for me like she usually is. I got ready for bed and sat there a moment thinking before I texted Matt.

OUTGOING SMS: In bed in one piece. I’m so glad you have met my friends and for a great night. Is David okay?

INCOMING SMS: I like picturing you in bed. You’re going to have to meet some of my friends some time now. I had a great night too. Love you. Good night.

Goodnight handsome.


Head over to my ‘Extract‘ page for the beginning of this story and more.

Thursday went by fast even though I didn’t talk to Matt a lot. He let me know his address and what time I should pick him up, but he was tired from work and needed sleep. I had butterflies all night thinking about everything that could happen and might go down on Friday night. Mum came into my room as I got ready to leave.

“Do you have enough money for tonight? Make sure that you bring a jacket with you” she said before heading back out.

INCOMING SMS: Hey do you think I can get a lift home tonight? Phoebe

OUTGOING SMS: Sure, I have to bring Matt home too.


OUTGOING SMS: The guy I met last week. You said that he could come remember?

INCOMING SMS: Yep, right, you didn’t tell me his name is all. See you soon.

Phoebe, always planning things at the last minute.

I left home as soon as I was ready and headed to Matt’s house. He didn’t live far, but I didn’t want to be late. I parked in his driveway after I saw that his car was parked there. I was beside myself nervous and had to look in the rear view mirror once more before I left to make sure that I looked okay. I grabbed my phone and the car keys and got out. As I walked towards the front door, the butterflies within were fluttering furiously. I stood in front of the front door for a few minutes, took a deep breath and then knocked.

There was no response. I gave it a few moments and then knocked again. This time I could hear shoes clobbering throughout the house behind the front door. The door finally opened and there was Matt.

“Sorry I had the radio on and didn’t hear the door. Come in” Matt said as he opened the door completely for me.

I walked in and thanked him and as just as he closed the door he grabbed my hip and brought me closer to him.

“Where are you going?” he asked looking down to me as his eyes examined my face before bringing his lips to mine.

I put my arms around his neck and found myself intoxicated by his perfume. He was the perfect scent of sweet and salty. Perfect for me.

“Hi” he said once he finished kissing me.


“You look amazing” Matt took my hand and led me up the stairs, not knowing where this was going.


Matt pushed open a slightly ajar door and I saw a little boy sitting on his bed. I presumed that it was David, his brother. But that wasn’t all that I saw. I saw Matt, everywhere. I hadn’t known Matt for long, but from everything I already knew about him, I knew that everything in this room was Matt’s and it all meant something to him. The hand draw pictures tacked onto the wall above his table. The books sitting haphazardly all over cupboards and bedside tables. Everything screamed Matt and I loved it.

“David this is Anna, the girl I was tell you about last night, remember?” Matt asked as we walked in.

“Hi” a soft whisper escaped his lips, gently.

“Hello David, it is so nice to meet you. Your brother here has told me so much about you. It’s great to finally meet you in the flesh”

But he didn’t respond, he just stood there colouring in the book page that was sitting on his lap.

“He’s not a big talker, he just has to get used to you first is all. David do you want to stay in here tonight?” Matt asked crouching down on his knees to get on his level.

There was a slight nod that I could see.

“Well then you know the rules. Television off by eight thirty at the latest and if you get hungry you can look for my hidden food, but don’t eat all of it because you might get sick and you don’t want that now do you. Mum will be downstairs all night, but if something is wrong call me first and I will be home as fast as I can. You can leave the light on if you want okay? Now Anna and I have to get going now but we will be back soon okay?” Matt told David before kissing the top of his shaggy brown hair.

“I can call you if I need you?” David whimpered.

“Of course buddy. Now I’ll lock the doors downstairs so there is nothing to be scared about because Mum is right downstairs. I’ll see you soon buddy”

How cute!

With a quick smile we walked out and closed the door along with us.

“I just have to say bye to Mum” Matt said taking my hand.

We walked down the stairs and followed the hallway to the end of the house to another door. Matt didn’t open the door, he just talked through it, telling his mother that he was leaving and that if anything happened that his phone will be on. But no one replied from the other side. I wondered what the story was, but I was in no position to ask such personal questions, not yet anyway.

It wasn’t cold just yet, but it was going to turn into one of those nights, so Matt grabbed his jacket before walking back to the car. I waited for him with the heat on because my feet were cold. I had never been in this position before. I had never driven a guy around, let alone my boyfriend. Hell a lot of things have happened during this week that have never happened to me before. It was great experiencing all of these normal things for once. Lily has a rule anyway, no one except for me and her are to drive the car, so Matt wasn’t going to be able to drive it anyway.

I watched Matt as he walked back to the car and couldn’t help but smile.

“What are you smiling about?” he asked as he got in and closed the door.

“Nothing, I’m just happy” I replied pulling my seatbelt over my shoulder.

“Happy looks good on you” Matt’s lips were on mine before I even had the chance to think.

Before I knew it we were sitting there in Lily’s car making out. The car was running and the heat that I had turned on was now adding the heat we were creating ourselves. I could feel sweat gathering on my forehead as we continued.

“Wait” I said pulling myself away from Matt “We should go or we will be late and the late time I was late to meet my friends I didn’t stop hearing about it for six months” the heat was too much to handle, I had to open a window.

Matt didn’t say anything but I could see him giggling to himself as I gently patted the sweat on my forehead away.

“Why are you laughing?” I had to ask.

“Because most girls would cancel their plans and make their boyfriends take them to their bedrooms. You instead insist that we leave” he replied running his hand through his hair.

“Well sorry that I’m not like every other girl. I promised Phoebe that I wouldn’t be late and I’m not like everyone else, I am my own person and I hope that that isn’t a problem for you” I flicked the heat off and turned the car lights on and put my seatbelt on properly.

“I like that you are your own person and I wouldn’t stop you from being yourself. Does Phoebe know about us?”

“No she doesn’t, so no hand holding or kissing. Will you be able to manage that?” it sounded more condescending than I intended.

“Mm, let me think” Matt said leaning over and kissed my cheek again.

“I’m serious Matt, they all think that I am bringing a friend who I met last week who was looking for someone to show them around. No funny business”

“Okay no kissing, no hand holding” he said and poked my leg.

I grabbed his finger and didn’t let go for a while.

“That hurt” I said a few minutes and let go.

“Sorry” Matt replied sheepishly and rubbed my leg.

I placed my hand back on the wheel and continued to drive towards the cinemas. Matt’s hand was on my leg and it didn’t move.

His hand is on my leg, just like in all those movies that I have watched.

At the last red light before we entered the cinema complex I quickly looked at Matt’s hand that was still on my leg and smiled. He saw me smile and rubbed my leg. As I drove into the parking station I could see the girls waiting outside the cinema doors.

“That’s them” I pointed out as I drove past them slowly before heading off to find a spot for the car.

I parked the car as soon as I could find a spot and felt the butterflies grow again as I turned the engine off.

“Okay so you have to remember”

Matt cut me off before I could tell him what I needed to tell him. He knew what he had to say and how he had to act and why we were here. It was reassuring to know that Matt had been listening to me and that he wasn’t going to screw this up. There was too much on the line for this to not work.

“Now shut up and kiss me before we get out of the car” Matt said taking off his seatbelt and leaning over to me.

We kissed for a few minutes before I knew we had to stop or we would get caught. I grabbed my jacket and put it on as it was now cold enough for it.

Thanks for the tip Mum.

Matt put his jacket it on as well and before I knew it I grabbed my bag and locked the car and we were heading towards the doors. I wanted to take his hand in mine, I could feel the energy that was pulsating between the two of us and we weren’t even touching. It was strong. Matt must have felt it as well because he took my hand in his.


“They can’t see us” he tried to tell me and squeezed my hand.

We were almost near the girls and I could see Phoebe. She saw us and then I realised that we were still holding hands.


As soon as I knew Phoebe had seen us holding hands, I dropped Matt’s hand and could see the smile creep over her face. She started running towards us very enthusiastically.

“That’s Phoebe” I said to Matt before she could reach us to warn him, although I knew that that wasn’t going to do anything.

“Anna” she yelled getting closer.

“Phoebe” I yelled back but not as loud as she had as she jumped onto me.

“How long?” she asked whispering into my ear without letting go of me.

Dammit she is good.

“Almost a week” I whispered back.

I knew that the charade was over, that there was no way that what Matt and I had planned on happening was going to happen now, now that Phoebe knows. Phoebe finally let go and looked at Matt.

“Phoebe this is Matt, Matt this is the illustrious Phoebe” I said once she finally stepped away from me.

“Hi Matt” Phoebe said and pulled him into a hug.

Why does she have to hug everyone?

I could see the shock and confusion written on his face, wondering why my friend was hugging him when they had only just met.

“Sorry” I said without volume.

“Matt, you break her heart I will break your dick so fast that you won’t even realise” Phoebe said when she let go of Matt.

Matt looked at me for help but all I could do was say sorry again.

“You don’t have to worry about that, I will never break her heart” he said and took my hand in his again.

“Argh look at the two of you. You’re so cute. The girls are going to flip when they see you guys holding hands” Phoebe said taping my cheeks.

“I think that your squeal before may have already told them” I said nodding towards them.

They were all looking at me, at us and I could see that they were already talking about us.

“Phoebe no one out of this group can know about us yet, we haven’t told out families yet, so nothing online please” I had to tell her as we started walking back to the group because I knew that she would go and say something.

“My lips are sealed” she replied walking next to me.

I looked at Matt and he looked freaked out, out of control, like he didn’t want to be here with me anymore. I knew that this was just the beginning of the night.

“They are all probably going to hug you now” I said to let him know before they pounced and squeezed his hand gently.

“Okay” he was nervous and I could hear it in his voice.

I’m guessing that Matt doesn’t like to be hugged much.


*Find the beginning of this story here

“When did you move here?” I asked curious.

“When I was ten, Mum and Dad moved us to London because Dad got a better job offer. Then when I was fifteen they got divorced and Mum took me and David and moved us to Australia. It’s been almost seven years now” Matt replied taking my hand that was on my lap.

Oh no he’s from a broken home.

I didn’t know what to say to him. I didn’t know what the appropriate answer or comeback was to your boyfriend telling you that his parents got a divorce. I squeezed his hand to let him know that I was there for him if he wanted to talk.

He kept his hand in mine the entire way to the restaurant. It didn’t take long to get there and once we were there I knew exactly where he was taking me. Matt parked the car in front of the restaurant and told me to wait in the car. As I waited for Matt to walk around to my side of the car to open the door, I stared out to the restaurant and I wondered how many times I had been past the restaurant wishing to go in.

How many times have I wanted to go here and now I am finally here, with a guy of all things. With Matt.

“Matthew, it’s so good to see you. How have you been my boy? And who is this lovely lady you have brought with you?” a man with a strong English accent said as the restaurant door closed behind us.

“Mr Core this is Anna. Anna this is Mr Core he owns the restaurant” Matt said after shaking his hand.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you Anna. You must be one special girl if Matthew is bringing you here” Mr Core said showing us to a table by the window.

Doesn’t Matt bring anyone else here? Am I the first girl he has brought here?

Mr. Core left us with a menu each and a bottle of cold water, giving us time to pick what we wanted to eat.

“Do you come here often?” I asked as I opened my menu.

“Umm yeah I do actually. When we first moved to Sydney, Mum wasn’t really around and I didn’t really know how to cook so I used to bring David here hoping that we could have something to eat with the little money we had and pretend that everything was okay at home. Eventually we started coming here whenever we had run out of food at home and didn’t have money to get more. Mr. Core and I became good friends, he is like a father to me and David and made sure we ate every day and then I started to work here when I was allowed to and started paying him back for all the meals he supplied us. Without Mr. Core and his wife we couldn’t have gotten through the first few years we were here. But now I can come here and pay for my food and know that Mr. Core is still here for me” Matt replied putting his menu down and looking me straight in the eyes.

Oh Matt.

“Anyway, do you know what you are going to order?” Matt asked trying to change the subject.

I took his hand and looked at him.

“Please no pity” he said looking back at me.

“Matt I’m not looking at you with pity; I am simply looking at you thinking why on earth I am only meeting you now” I said with a smile.


“Matt I want to know everything there is to know about you good or bad. So don’t hold back on me now” I replied taking my hand away from his, glancing at the menu one more time and putting it back on the table.

“Do you know how much I love you right now?” Matt said leaning across the table and kissed me.

Not as much as I love you.

A waitress came to our table a few minutes later and took our order. I learnt that Matt is exactly like me and orders burgers where ever he goes and agrees that there is no such thing as a bad time for a burger. Another common denominator between us.

As we waited for our meal I watched the waves crashing and completely zoned out.

“You do that a lot don’t you?” Matt asked snapping me back to reality.

“Huh? What? Sorry”

“It’s okay, the view takes some time getting used to; trust me David would stare out the window for hours when he was a baby” Matt replied taking my hand in his.

Our meals arrived just as after Matt finished his sentence. He said thank you to the girl who he obviously knows.

“The food looks amazing” I said looking at the burger that had been placed in front of me.

“It tastes even better” Matt said picking up half of his burger.

I watched him take a bite of his burger.

My god he makes eating sexy too.

I could have sat there for hours watching him eat, but I didn’t want to waste the amazing smelling burger that was sitting in front of me. I lifted half my burger up from the plate and took a bite out of it.

“Mm that is good” I said swallowing my food.

Matt laughed at me and I could feel the sauce running down my chin.

“I’m sorry” I laughed “I’m not being very lady like” I said picking up my napkin and wiping my mouth.

He laughed at me again and picked up his napkin.

“Here” Matt said wiping my chin again, clean.

“You missed a bit”

“I always make a mess of myself whenever I eat a burger. But I love them too much to stop eating them”

“Hey you don’t have to explain yourself to me. The mess makes you look cute” He replied before taking another bite of his burger.

My mess makes me look cute. Did he write the book of romance?

We continued to eat our meal as we talked. The burger was amazing, the chips were even better and the company was to die for. Matt finished his food moment before I did.

“I understand why you keep coming here now and bring everyone with you”

“Actually, you are the only other person I have brought here other than Mum and David” Matt said after taking a sip of water.

“This place means too much to me. I didn’t want to ruin it by bring girls here that didn’t mean anything to me”

I sat back in my seat and just looked at him. I knew it wasn’t the right time or place to ask him about past relationships even though he has just mentioned other girls. We didn’t talk for a few minutes, we reviled in the silence.

“I presume you enjoyed your meal” Mr. Core asked coming to the table.

“Absolutely. That was the best burger I have ever eaten. Thank you so much” I replied with a smile on my face.

“Anna you can come back here whenever you want. Matthew I like this girl. Would you like to see the dessert menu?” Mr. Core asked picking up the last fork on the table.

“Um, actually I thought we could go home and have dessert?” Matt said looking at me.

“Sure, if you want”

No dessert? What do you have planned Matt?

“Can I please have the bill Mr. Core?” Matt asked looking at him after breaking his stare from me.

“No, today is on the house” He replied tapping him on the cheek like he was his own son.


As I got up from the table I noticed Matt had already disappeared. He was at the door talking to Mr. Core. The look on their faces told me that they had gone through so much together. If I hadn’t known better I could have sworn that they were father and son.

As we walked to the car hand in hand after they finished talking and I wondered what was going to happen next, after all Matt did go to the effort of denying me dessert so we could go home.

Maybe he has a surprise at home for me?

Once we were in the car I checked my phone.

“Is everything okay?” Matt asked as he noticed me staring at my phone.

“Yeah, what’s the time?”

“It is almost two o’clock. Why?”

“Lily is catching the earlier ferry. She docks at three” I replied putting my phone away and putting my seatbelt on.

“That’s okay I need to pick up David at three. So we can go back to your house for a little bit and then we’ll both leave at two-thirty to pick them up” he replied putting the car in gear.

Sounds like a plan.

“Well aren’t you a man with a plan?”

“I am but that wasn’t the plan I had come up with, but thirty minutes of making out with you might just be enough for now” he replied as we drove away from the restaurant.

We sat in silence as Matt drove us back to my house. It wasn’t an awkward silence, it was a nice peaceful silence, and we didn’t need to feel the air with noise, sitting in silence was nice.

Suddenly as Matt continued to drive something came over me, a feeling that wasn’t going to go away until I asked Matt how he was feeling. It felt like the right time to talk about our relationship now that we’ve gone on what I presume to be our first date.

“Hey Matt?”

“Yes Anna” Matt replied turning a corner.

“Do you think this is weird?”

“What’s weird?”

Now that I have started I can’t turn back.

“The situation we are in. We met yesterday morning and we have already told each other that we love one another” Matt was pulling over “but we don’t know each other and I am not trying to sound ungrateful because believe you me I have never been this happy, but don’t you think that we are moving too fast and that we will burn out to early?” I asked nervously knowing I wasn’t going to settle until I knew his response.

Matt had completely pulled the car over and had parked it. I turned to face him as turned in his seat to face me. He took my hands in his and looked at me.

“Do you believe in love at first sight?” he asked.

“Yes of course I do. But what has that got to do with anything?”

“Do you believe in fate and destiny?” he asked another question.

“Yes to some extent I suppose I do”

“Anna I think that it was fate that brought you to my counter yesterday morning, and I believe that it was written in our destiny to meet each other yesterday. My mother used to say to me that love is only worth it if you love them from the moment you meet them. Anna I love you and I want to get to know you and I know we missed the whole awkward courting part but we can go back and do all of that if you want or we can keep going forward. I think we could be great together”

“I think you’re great Matt” I started.


“I’m scared that this is not real, I’m scared that after all this time waiting to be with someone my mind is playing some sick joke on me and has made you up. I know that sounds stupid, but it’s how I feel”

“Does this feel real?” Matt asked and then kissed me.

Of course this is real. If it wasn’t would you have just felt like that from one kiss? You know this is really Anna.

“Yes” I said leaning my forehead against his.

My eyes started to tear up and I could feel a tear escape. Matt placed his hands on my cheeks and pulled back.

“If you think that this is a mistake or we are going to fast we can slow down. We can walk away for a few days and then start as friends, hang out, go to movies the whole courtship” Matt said staring into my eyes.

“Can you drive me home?” I didn’t reply to his suggestion because I wanted to talk to him in private but as soon as I said it both his hands and smile dropped.

He started the car and drove off. We didn’t speak the whole way back to my house. Once we got home and Matt parked in the driveway I looked at him.

He’s sad. What have I just done? I’ve ruined this.

“Can you please come inside with me?” I asked hoping that he would.

He opened the door and jumped out. I opened the front door and walked in. I took his hand and walked him inside. I took off my shoes and jacket and sat on my bed. I patted for him to sit down and he took off his shoes. Slowly he walked over to the bed and sat right next to me. Yesterday we had the blanket just over our legs; today however I wanted the blanket over our heads, to bring us closer.

We sat cross legged facing each other with the blanket above our heads.

“Matt I didn’t say any of that to hurt you”

“This feels like déjà vu” he replied.

“That’s because I didn’t want to say what I want to say in public and I wanted to make sure you were actually listening to me when I spoke” I said taking his hand in mine.

“If you could would you take back saying I love you to me yesterday?” I asked.


“Why not?”

“Why do you want to know this for?” he replied getting angry.

“Indulge me please”

“I said I love you yesterday because that is how I felt and I wanted to be open and honest with you from the start, so I said it”

“I only ask because I wanted to hear you say that you love me again” I said taking his hands.

“Matt I don’t want to take it slow, I don’t want to be just friends or do the whole courtship thing. I actually want to be at the point where you don’t have to ask permission to walk inside my house or room or ask me if you can kiss me. I want us to be at the point where we can say and do anything we want and be one hundred percent comfortable with each other”

“I want all of that too, but why did you freak out in the car?”

“Because I am an idiot and it is what I do, freak out and because for the longest of time and especially after the whole Daniel thing I haven’t really learnt how to trust my feelings and other people especially guys. I love you Matt and as crazy as it sounds if you asked me to marry you right now I would probably say yes”

Please don’t ask me, please don’t ask me. Why did you just say that Anna?

He looked at me like he had had an idea and I had to stop him just in case he was going to ask.

“Please don’t ask me because I don’t think I have the strength to say no to you” I quickly said before he opened his mouth.

“I had thought about it, but maybe I’ll wait a few more days” he said with a kiss.

I laughed to show him that we were okay and that I hoped everything would go back to normal.

Don’t kid yourself kid, you just said you would marry him out loud.

“Just one more thing before I ask if we are okay. What am I supposed to do about my friends and family?”

“We’ll take it one day at a time and if that doesn’t work we can always say that we meant online” Matt said with a laugh before he kissed me again.

“Hey that’s not funny” I said pushing him away.

Yes it was.

“Yes it was” we said at the same time.

We kissed again and again and again eventually I was on my back and Matt was on top of me.

“Sorry for freaking out before” I said caressing his cheek.

“Sorry for not finding you earlier”

I love you.

We keep kissing until all of a sudden something beeped.

“What was that?” I asked as Matt pulled away.

“My watch, so I don’t forget to pick up David” he said turning off the beeping

“I guess that means we must stop and go our separate ways”

“I suppose one more kiss won’t hurt anyone”

What was supposed to be one more kiss was five minutes and now we were both late.

“Okay now we have to go”

“Yeah before Lily rings” I said putting my shoes on again.

I locked the front door behind us and stopped at my car.

“I don’t want to go” I said leaning on the car and wrapping my arms around his neck.

“Neither do I but David will be waiting for me” Matt said with a kiss.

“You and David must be really close”

“We are. For the longest time it was just me and him and a mother that was never around. He’s my best friend and I’m his. He’s going to love you when he meets you”


“Absolutely, but if I don’t leave to pick him up he’s not going to be happy”

“Go on than get out of here. Lily should be docking soon anyway” I said pushing off the car and opening the door.

“Can I text you later tonight?”

“I wouldn’t want it any other way” I said with a kiss and he was off to his car.

I waited for Matt to reverse out of the drive way before I moved the car. He beeped and was off.

Dude, he just left calm down. He said he is going to text later and he will. Just go and pick up Lily. Everything is going to be okay.


*The story continues…(Look under ‘Extracts‘ for more from this story)

I started clearing my room of all the emergency things I had brought into it. I blow out the candles and folded the blankets I had on the carpet. I put everything back where they belong, but kept the blanket we had used on the bed.

It was well past four when I had finished cleaning my room but Mum or Lily weren’t meant to be home for another two hours. I decided that I needed to clear my head and the best way to do that was in a cold shower. I hesitantly jumped into the shower but couldn’t get Matt’s face and voice out of my mind. I had hoped that a cold shower would cool me down and help me clear my thoughts about Matt, but it didn’t work. There was nothing in the world that was going to make me clear my thought, empty my mind, not today, probably not ever. I knew as soon as he said those three little words that my life was going to change forever, but what I didn’t know was that I was going to be able to feel such emotions like I have today ever in my life. I had dreamt about it forever, but in real life it doesn’t feel anything like it. I knew it was a risk, a risk I was willing to take for myself because I knew I was going to regret it if I didn’t follow my heart.

I wasn’t able to forget about Matt but I was able to work out what I was going to cook for dinner. As I got dressed in my bedroom I saw my phone on my bedside table and remembered that Matt had done something to it. I hurried to get it and open it and see what he had done. But I couldn’t find anything. There were no pictures, no messages, no Facebook status, or Twitter updates or even an email.

What did he do to my phone?

I was getting frustrated not being able to find what Matt had done knowing that he indeed had done something, so I put it down and went to fix my hair. As I stood there towel drying my hair it came to me that the only place I hadn’t looked was in my calendar.

What is he going to do in my calendar? Check to see when I’m free? News update – I’m always free!

I grabbed my phone and started looking in my calendar.

Finally, I found it.

CALENDAR ENTRY FOR 9:30AM TODAY: Talked to a superhot check out guy who followed me to my car and then proceeded to give me his number.

CALENDAR ENTRY FOR 12PM TODAY: Stalker, also known as Matt kissed me and told me that he loved me.

He marked it on my calendar? Seriously? Could this guy get any cuter?

I read them over and over again, making sure that my eyes and brain weren’t deceiving me. I fell back onto my bed as I kept reading them over and over again with a massive smile on my face.

I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to say thank you or something else, anything else that would let me hear his angelic voice again, but he told me he would call me when he was free at home.

Calm down Anna; don’t freak him out with being the clingy girl that can’t spend time away from him.

I laid there on my bed for a while just replying the events of today over and over in my mind, hypnotised by Matt and his message.

INCOMING SMS: Just left work, on my way home. See you soon, Mum.

Mum’s coming home, back to reality.

OUTGOING SMS: About to start dinner. Dad is working late. Love Anna.

I could have stayed on my bed all night if I didn’t have to cook dinner, but I couldn’t, it was part of the deal for me to stay home and study. Good thing I’m a pretty good cook. So I grabbed my phone, put it in my pocket and headed to the kitchen with my IPod. I placed ABBA on loud, to drown out the rain and started cooking.

Dinner was almost done when Mum got home. I grabbed what I needed to set the table and went and fixed it as the pasta finished cooking. I checked my phone as I walked out of the kitchen for the second time with more things to put on the table.

“Who are you waiting a call from?” Mum asked sneaking up on me.

“Oh no one I was just checking the time” I replied putting my phone back in my pocket.

The pasta finished cooking, the table was set and Mum had finished whatever work she needed to do. Lily walked through the front door as I placed the pasta on the table.

“Good timing” I called out as she locked the door behind her.

Dad called again saying that he had to finish the rest of the shift he has started. There was still nothing from Matt.

The rest of the night was just like every other night, dinner went on without Dad and Lily talked our ears off about work. All was the same, except that tonight I was waiting for a message, a call, anything from Matt. It had only been a few hours since I last heard his voice or saw his face, but it felt like an eternity. As I sat in front of the television watching whatever Lily wanted to watch, I was getting fidgety and impatient. I was trying to work out if there was something that I could say to start the conversation or get his attention.

I’m going crazy. Please text me Matt.

It was getting close to ten o’clock which in my terms is pretty early, but when you are waiting for someone to message you it literary feels like forever, when I decided to go to bed. I lay their trying to relax listening to the clock ticking. Tick tick tick tick. And eventually I fell asleep.


Finally a message.

It was well past eleven o’clock when the message came through. I had already had thirty minutes of sleep. I must have been more tired than I had thought. I guess meeting a guy and falling in love in one day can really drain a person.

Eventually I rolled over and grabbed my phone. Opening my eyes slowly, knowing the light from the phone would blind me, I took my time to read the message.

INCOMING SMS: Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. I thought about calling, but it’s late. Dinner took longer than usual and it threw out my plans. Matt.

Interesting. As much as I want to keep talking I want to sleep.

OUTGOING MESSAGE: Is everything okay? Sleep is good company when you are waiting for something. Anna.

I held onto the phone and dozed back off to sleep. For the first time in a long time I went to sleep with a smile. It was also the first time in a long that I wish that I could fast forward through the night and get to the next day.

INCOMING SMS: Oh I’m sorry were you sleeping? I didn’t mean to wake you up. I just wanted to say good night and make sure you didn’t go crazy waiting for me to text you. Matt.

Me go crazy? Ha-ha like that was going to happen.

OUTGOING SMS: I was sleeping but happy to be woken by you. Thank you for an amazing day and putting it into my calendar. Good night. Anna.

As soon as I pressed ‘send’ I fell back asleep.